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day 4 - a habit that you wish you didn't have.

hmmm... the first thing that came to mind was biting my nails. the second was how i push away new people in my life. talk about extremes.

to address the former, biting my nails, i've done it since i was little, probably 4 years old. it's disgusting, and i can't even tell you how many times i've tried to quit. i've done almost everything... painting my nails so it tastes gross, thinking about all the germs, chewing gum, etc... but i never can truly shake it. i can and usually do stop during the summer, but once school starts everything goes to hell. its gross, disgusting, and repulsive, but i just dont know whether i'll ever stop.

to address the latter, pushing people away. there's not much to say really besides the fact that i dont like getting hurt, especially by people i confide in. so to solve the problem, i just dont let anyone in.. im working on it, and getting better, but bottom line, i have trust issues. it just takes time... and believe me, i would love so much to physically injure the person who gave me all these issues, but i've always heard that violence is the answer. and you know, blaming others doesnt normally help either. so for now, im working on myself.

one more bad habit that i just realized, i have horrible punctution, and capitalization issues on my blog. apologies... i just realized i rarely proof read, capitalize, or put punctuation in the correct places. From now on, I'll try to work on that. I'm sure it would make my blog easier to read.

have a blessed day.