Friends?

I intend for this question to be completely serious.

There's this guy... (this should be hint that this post can go nowhere but down) that I have been off/on with for the past 6 years. Literally. Junior year of high school the saga began. He's hot when I'm cold, I'm hot when he's cold.

Right now, I'm cold. Freezing. I'm about to leave for Germany for 6 months. I'm not sure I'm capable of committing to relationship right now, without the added 'I'm leaving the country for 6 months' dynamic. I digress, he has accused me multiple times of leading him on. And he's gotten mad about it. (and vice versa) Let's not give the impression that he's innocent in the leading on area of this relationship (and I use the term Relationship loosely. really loosely) Recently I invited him to hang out.

Shame.
On.
Me.

Let's just say, he's hot right now. I'm not talking about my opinions of his looks either, which are not bad, by any means.

I didn't know it was not ok to ask an old friend to get together and catch up, or maybe I did, and I was just playing with fire. Well, darlings, I got Burned. He took me home and I totally had to dip out of that sketchy situation where you're avoiding the kiss.

I'm at a loss. Apparently, it is time to lose a friend. It's not fair to either of us to always keep each other on the back burner, especially if we're never both on the front burner. (that was a bad analogy, but you get the drift.) It makes me feel really guilty when I do it. I don't think that's fair either. Why should I feel guilty for just wanting to have a plutonic relationship with a member of the opposite sex.

Harry really knew what he was talking about...
sex** always gets in the way.

**There's no sex involved, just to clear the air. Not that it's any of your business. But you get my point.